When mother's turn monsters

They say " Because god couldn't be everywhere, he made mothers " . Motherhood is a very important part of most women's life . I know women who say that they were put on this earth to be mothers. I too feel like one of them, the day the doctors handed that tiny little delicate darling in my hands is the most memorable day of my life, I was changed in an instant, never to go back to what I was before that moment . Everything inside me felt like protecting this vulnerable, defenseless little baby in my hands, the world was a bad place, and only I could keep her safe . I imagine, this is close to what other mothers feel as well, it's part of being a new mother, part oxytocin gushing through your brain doing it's job .


Then you get home,  reality hits that life with a baby isn't easy at first, midnight feedings, lack of sleep, crying baby, it's painful and difficult to deal with . Eventually you get back some semblance of routine, and get a life back....and inspite of all this most women, wanna do it all over again ...for some it's several times again, incredible!! That's because, inspite of all the hard work, physical pain, and other troubles mothers have to go through, pales in comparison to the feeling of being a mom, one look, one smile from your baby, and the world melts into oblivion, with all it's problems. Mothers will go through any amount of troubles to protect and comfort their child .
What then can cause a mother to snap and go off the handle to such an extent that she could take the life of her own offspring. All of these thoughts have come to me because of a very talked off murder case on tv right now, where a mother is charged with the murder of her baby girl .
The Casey Anthony trial for the death of little Caylee Anthony is just heart breaking to watch . I can understand why it has caught so much attention . For most people this is an unfathomable scenario , a mother taking the life of her own offspring. The protector, becomes the destroyer !! Unimaginable situation.
In case there's someone out there, reading this, who doesn't know what I'm talking about, read this .
The trial is currently on tv, and I like many others can't stop watching it . It is disturbing on so many levels .
Why would a mother not report a missing child to authorities for over a month ??
Who was searching for ways to make chloroform at home on the family computer at the anthony home ??
If there was no Zenaida or zanny the nanny, then where would caylee be all those times that casey said she had left caylee with zanny ??
Was zanny a short form for xanax ? Was casey using xanax as a way to knock caylee out when she went out partying , and then she ran out of it, decided to make chloroform instead, and accidentally overdose little caylee, killing her ??
Why did casey continually lie to police about zanny, her whereabouts, and kept leading them on dead ends, if she wasn't involved with caylee's death ??

These are some of the questions plaguing the minds of many viewers like me, who are watching this case currently. Some of the questions we may never get answers to, since casey may never take the stand, and even if she does, she's one heck of a liar, she might just lie under oath .
One more reason this case is so sad for me is because that beautiful child caylee ( may her soul R.I.P) was exactly my daughter's age now, when she went missing, just a little bit shy of 3 years , and to me she kinds looked like my baby too....the same cute smile, same innocence, all this makes the case very difficult for me to watch....but yet I'm glued, it's like a car-wreck, I don't wanna see it, but can't look away either .
For me this trial reminds me so much of another high profile trial, not too long ago that took the nation by storm ...The Laci peterson murder and the trial of her husband Scott Peterson accused for the murder of laci and her unborn child . In both cases, the defendent was a young, attractive person, with an apparent sociopathic personality type , who felt that the people in their life were holding them back from enjoying life fully, both were completely circumstancial cases, there was no dna evidence, no actual theory of cause of death, and the bodies of both victims, were found months later, in advanced decomposed state, making it difficult to run forensic tests. While scott peterson, met his fate, when the guilty verdict was handed out, what happens in this case remains to be seen.
In my heart, I feel that casey either killed her knowingly, or accidently, but she was the reason caylee died, and I just hope caylee gets justice in this matter .
This case makes one think, how can a mother become so desperate, crazy, selfish, whatever, so as to take the life of her own child  ?
In casey's case, she become a mother at a very young age, didn't wanna keep the baby, but casey's mother didn't allow the baby to be put up for adoption, and as a result casey became a single mom at a very young age, ( the identity of little caylee's father is unknown).
This isn't the first case of a mother being accused of killing her child, we have seen the cases of andrea yates, susan smith, diane downs to name a few, but casey;s case somehow seems the most bizzare and mind boggling of all, mainly because all of the lies that she told right from the get go in this case . Why would any innocent person, do that ? I can't come up with a reason, none .
The defense has come up with a theory that caylee drowned in the pool, and casey and her father covered it up, and that casey was sexually abused by her father for years, and hence got used to coverups and lies. This theory is lame at best, not to mention, baseless, there's no proof of it, at all .
My heart really goes out to casey;s parents cindy and george anthony in this matter, their daughter has made their lives into a circus, and they are truly between a rock and hard place, they lost their precious grandbaby, and now their daughter is on trial, possibly fighting for her own life, if she gets the death penalty. It can't be a good place to be in . I just hope they get their closure with this trial, and can go back to their lives, and most importantly caylee gets justice .